Dear Wave,

I am wondering how you are. I wish we could have a good heart-to-heart chat in the car. You, sitting behind me, telling me funny things. I want to know how Mikey and Squirt are doing without me around. And I would love to talk over so many things with the three of you, because you’re smart and imaginative and you all care about each other. You ask the right questions. You take me out of my head. You bring me into the moment and what is important to children is the most important thing. Also, I want to play with you. I want to wrestle and play games and chase each other around the house with Charlie barking at our heels. And I want to play hide and seek and have you not be able to find me. I’m so good at hide and seek! I want to cook you breakfast and speak in my English accent and have you tell me to go find Grammy. The water here in Nosara is like velvet. The softest water in the world you’d want to feel on your skin. Your aunt Franci is a very good body surfer. You will be one too one day. I know how much you love machines of all kinds. Well, we went out on some wonderful dirty roads by a river today on the ATV’s, me, Papa, Fran & Will and it was so fun! And holding onto Papa from the seat behind him, I thought, how smart I was, how lucky I am that I am holding onto the right man after all these years of marriage. Still holding onto the right man. And it brought tears to my eyes and I leaned up to his ear and told him how I felt and he really liked hearing it too. You’ll fall in love with someone some day too. I knew when I married Papa I was all in & making the right choice. But it’s risky, and you can’t be sure you’re making the right choice for life! And I was. And I hope you find the right special person for your life when you’re older. Thanks for listening, Wave. I needed share what’s on my mind and in my heart. Happy Valentine’s Day tomorrow! XO